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Monday, January 30, 2006
BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN got me good...
Please take note of mild spoilers, so if you don't wanna get spoiled. Skip reading it.
I couldn’t even begin to say how much this movie had touched my heart. I’ve been interested in this movie from the first time I heard about it being filmed. Tell you honestly; as I watched the end credits flashed on the screen, I was still in awe – bowled over. I was like breathing in between sobs and silently cursing Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger for bringing Jack and Ennis to life.
I was adamant to read the short story before watching the film as I’ve done that before (Harry Potter, se7en, Queen of the Damned) and I got disappointed on the film because it doesn’t go anywhere near how the book. Though, I told myself why not try it out again with Brokeback Mountian (BBM). I read the short story before I saw the film and I loved both.
As for Heath and Jake, they were so convincing that I had my twisted slashy brain thinking they look so good together they can pass for real life lovers. Enter all the slashy fictions, which by the way, I love reading and writing.
I have always admired Heath for his amazing talent, tactless personality (I mean this in a good way) and unutterable good looks (especially if he smiles and show his dimples). I have marveled at his performance as Ned Kelly and liked him in Knight’s Tale. However, his portrayal as Ennis Del Mar in BBM had raised my bar of respect for him as an actor. The last scene had my tears inescapably running down my cheeks. :nod: It was when Ennis opened his closet and it showed that Jack’s jacket and his shirt, plus that postcard (which the movie didn’t further explain that Ennis had ordered it because it wasn’t available anymore) then he's swearing he’ll love Jack forever (or something to that effect). That scene was just tear-jerking.
With Jake however, I wasn’t really a fan before BBM. I never really followed his career, although, I watched some of his movies. In fact, maybe, I was just looking forward to watching Heath on this film when I first learned about it. But this guy has a lot of thing to offer and I’m glad I got to see it now. It takes guts and a substantial amount of talent to pull out a role like Jack. They are risks and compromises that might follow and he took the challenge and exceeded expectations.
I always challenge myself watching films with unconventional/conflicting couples. Thus, I find it interesting to see a film about gay love. I just hope that when people entered the cinema, they must open their minds and accept that BBM is actually just a mirror of life’s reality. It’s about time that they got their own story told and people should accept it.
When Alma Jr. said she’ll be marrying a guy she knew for a year, it took a while for Ennis to rebound on the thoughts that he had wasted 20 years of not telling Jack he wanted to be with him too. It took him 20 fucking years to finally admit that he really does love him. Unfortunately, it’s already late. The parallel described between Alma Jr. and her father was told in a very genuine script. They weren’t even crying but I’m like crying and feeling this huge lump on my throat. It was a fantastic scene! Ang Lee and Brokeback Mountain deserves all praises. Even Oprah said it’s more than just a cowboy gay movie.
Posted at 01:48 pm by shnicky
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
I found this hilarious oracle... Check it out!
| What Your Underwear Says About You |
 You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone. |
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and btw, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Posted at 07:35 pm by shnicky
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
It's a Happy Holiday afterall!
Five days until Christmas, I'm feeling it! I have done my shopping ages ago and I wanted to give everything under our tree away... now. It's like the first time that I have bought everything under that tree and I wanna see all the happy faces. That's the price of being the only one who has a job at home. It's tough but it'll be rewarding. I'm not complaining.
It's also fantastic because our office doesn't have an operation on the 25 and on the New Year's eve. Working in a contact centre means you can spend almost every holidays in the office. Good riddance, they (the Management) gave us a break. So, that means I'll be home for Christmas. Isn't it wonderful?
Tomorrow, Ellen and I will be attending a training for the escalation queue during our January 1 operation. We were part of the team who got picked to handle calls outside our normal department queue. It's a great way of exploring possibilities and added product knowledge. I'm excited. We won't be taking calls for three days and it's a good break from the stressful work being a Customer Service Rep.
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I'm at home now wondering what if I am going to spend my Christmas outside of the Philippines. Would it be great? Can it satisfy me even I'm not with my family? Will it be tough? I've spent my entire life here and I think I'm ready to go outside of my cocoon. Come out - be independent.
I was trying to cook lunch the other day. My rice turned into porridge and everybody at home teased me about it. The thing is I NEVER cook. My dad always prepare my breakfast, lunch and dinner. I can only fry (but not too complicated frying) stuff. I'm lazy when it comes to cooking. I dunno if there's a cure for it.
So, now I'm back to wondering... what if I'm somewhere in London, will I ever even try to learn how to cook? or be independent?
I'm not even sure I can. :(
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I was bored the other day I made some avatars.
Maroon 5
   
Lost
 
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I bought a digital camera the other week. I'll be uploadiing some picture we've taken so far.
I gotta run! Got limited time online.
Shnicky's off... 
Posted at 10:57 pm by shnicky
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
updates... updates... what am I doing lately?
MUSIC: Bite your tongue - Duncan Sheik
I dunno what to write in here, really. I've been away for months and I dunno where my story here can start.
UPDATES with me?
WORK: No update. I'm still a CSR. I think I'll forever be a CSR. No luck. I just got interviewed as I have applied for Nest Support (TPA) though there's like 31 applicants and if it turns out unbiased I might be on the list for the next exam. Nonetheless, I'm not actually thinking I'd be on the list. I kinda knew how the system goes with our account so better luck next time. I'm not sour-graping. Really. I wish them all luck. Lucky clinging asses get the job fast!
ONLINE LIFE: Oh, this is much better that my work. FanForum picked me to moderate the Lost board few months ago. My sister actually pimped me to apply for the Mod position, (I was kinda waiting for Josh Holloway's board) and yay! I got it. So far the board is doing okay. There were some commotions with some unappreciation threads but in all I am loving the board. Though, I'm yet to watch the new season. I friggin live in the Philippines and I badly need a DSL or WiFi coonection! Darn!
FAMILY: We're doing okay. Alexine (Ate Dang's sweet lil kulit) celebrated her birthday last October 28th, though I wasn't able to go with them to dine out. Guess why? Work! Hmp... It's nearing Christmas. I have to go shopping for gifts. I'll prolly get bankrupt again for the nth time.
OBSSESSIONS: Orlando Bloom's new movie is due February next year so I'm like too pissed to care about other stuff. Well, there are magazines that featured him on the cover. So expect my credit card bills to pile up again. I bought Maroon 5's new DVD. Yay! It was fantastic! I'll post my review here later this week (hopefully). Then there's Kingdom of Heaven DVD, which I asked my bro to get me. I dunno, it hasn't arrived yet. Then I saw a Legolas barbie doll. I want it! Then I ordered Maroon 5 stuff online, I got it last week. I love the shirt. I should take a picture of me wearing that. Do remind me about it.
What else? Seems like I'm typing more on here than the other updates I've wriiten.
Oh, my Lost and Cold Heart DVD should arrive on the 10th. I'm so excited...
So, anything else? I'll just post later on or within this week...
Shnicky...Signing off!
Posted at 06:13 pm by shnicky
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
MUSIC: Curtains Fall - Blue
MOOD: Nostalgic
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Some of you might not know I have been a very addicted Boyzone fan before. I used to collect stuff about them, write fictions about them. As I was rummaging my old fiction files, I came across this one I made and got published in a UK magazine called Big!
I emailed the story to the editor and got an email back after a week. They published it, I think it was January 2002 or 2001, I cannot really remember.
Anyway, I thought I'll write it in here...
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STEPHEN GATELY - MY 5-MINUTE FANTASY
No matter what Mary Hombre will always love Stephen Gately...
A few months ago I had m heart broken - it was the day Stephen Gately announced he was gay. It had been four years since I'd fallen madly in love but I still wasn't ready to feel the sorrow unrequited love could bring. Then last month my spirits were lifted when my mum announced, "We're going on vacation to England!" So now, I'm in Notting Hill, sitting on the exact bench where Ronan sat in his video for When You Say Nothing At All. Tonight, we're going back to the Philippines...
SEND ME A SIGN
"Life can be so cruel," I sighed to myself. I've been in England for two weeks with a shattered heart and no sign of any Boyzone member. I look up at at the heavens and whispered, "God, I know I will love again. Please give me a sign?"
That very second it starts to rain, "Here, take my jacket," sas a very sweet voice. "Or are you trying to catch a cold?" The smell, the accent, the presence... I know I'm not dreaming but I have to pinch myself. "I've been watching you eversince you got here. You seem lost or sad. Am I right? he says, sitting himself down beside me. It is the man I've always dreamt of meeting: Stephen Gately. "I can tell you," he continues, "that's how I felt few months ago - in pain but hopeful. I never thought that life had to be cruel to be kind; but after all the grief I went through, I came out smiling in the end."
I look into his wonderful eyes and find the courage to speak. "Stephen, I love you," I whisper, "That won't change. But I know you're happy now and I'm happy for you. Don't know why I'm sad... maybe because I was afraid that I'd leave England without ever meeting you. But now this is the happiest day of my life!"
He chuckles, puts his arm around my shoulder and kisses my cheek. "Thank you," he says. He flashes me the cutest smile I've ever seen and leads me out of the park. Walking along he starts to tell me his love story...
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Few years after it got published, I met Stephen here in Manila and I let him sign the magazine. He was very pleased.
Tha's all. I wanna be nostalgic today.
Posted at 12:10 pm by shnicky
Friday, July 29, 2005
Let's go to Denial ISland!
So I just watched Do No Harm episode and I want to bawl my eyes out.
BOOOONNNNEEEEE!!!
I was like I wish I can do something to stop his pain.
Shame on you, Shannon!
Posted at 08:36 am by shnicky
Sunday, July 17, 2005
MUSIC: The Day you Said Goodbye - Hale
MOOD: Got colds but I'm totally fine (loving my week off from work)
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It was my mum's birthday last Friday, July 15. There was never a celebration. We moved it today since the Blessed Virgin pilgrim is with us at home and is scheduled to be transfered to another house. My week off from work is nearing its end and I'm feeling nostalgic about it. It's true, time passed by so quickly if you're having fun. I wish time flies quick if I'm at work.
I told my friends at Fan Forum that it was payday last Friday too then by Saturday I'm broke.  It's part of the irony in life. Bills! Bills! My mum and I had a deal that I'll be paying for the phone company, cable, internet and my nephew's tuition. She only has to pay for the electricity bills. Well, it seems like I am paying for everything. Then there's my credit card bills, my loan bills! When will the bills stop? I'm anticipating the day that all those bills will vanish. But I guess that will NEVER happen.
Anyway, I was trying to make myself a website. Hopefully, it'll be finished before I go back to work, otherwise, I cannot finish that at all. I'll be posting my fics there. You guys can comment, scrutinize, bash them. 
Some random thoughts:
- Saw Hale last night at SM Fairview. Went there to do the grocery. Oh, nah, just heard them perform. Too many people there to watch them. I like their songs.
- I have a new country added to my I-wanna-travel-these list, Vienna! Such a romantic place.
- Went to the Post Office last Friday to post the CDs for my friend, Jessica. Let's see how long will it take to reach her.
- There are rumours that MTVAsia Awards 2006 will be held in Manila. That news brings music to my ears.
- Why is Manila full of pollution? Why?
- I wanna go to Quiapo to buy some bootleg DVDs. Shhhh... be quiet!
- I wanna see Adam Levine!
Shnicky signing off. 
Posted at 10:01 am by shnicky
Thursday, June 30, 2005
MUSIC: Let's Get Retarded - Black Eyed Peas
MOOD: Doing better now...
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Don't ask me why am I fretting, I may end up writing a novel!
Okay, okay, I'll try not to rant too much. So I bought a new PC, I specifically asked the dealer to install Adobe Reader so I can download and open Maroon 5's E-zine and the Australian Embassy Forms (my sister Dang's request). Then I found nothing, zilch, after it was delivered.
All right, I forgave that stupid Chinese whoever! I started downloading Adobe Reader from the net. After three gruelling hours, it was finished finally. But it ain't working... I dunno why. Says, "File corrupted!" What the hell was that for? Now, I'm back online downloading it again and hopefully this sucker will eventually open! Pete's sake, puhlease?!!!
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Meanwhile, it's my rest day today so I thought about writing. At last though unfortunate, the jeepney fare increased to Php7.50. I can still remember back in high school, jeepney fare was just Php3.00. Then it increased to Php4.00, I think; then to $5.50.
It is so hard living in the Philippines. Less jobs, more expenses, high cost of living (for me, cuz I know some people might disagree). I guess, it's a chain reaction. Oil prices go up, jeepney fare goes up, commodity prices go up. Though our salary is in stale mode. I know, if salary goes up, then unemployment increases. People will be laid off, business people will cut their budget for manpower. It's a sad world!
Then there's the news about our dear President's impeachment. How in the world can we make other countries respect us when we are lashing our very own people? Respect and trust have to happen within a community first before gaining the world. I hate to say that Filipinos think staging another People Power or impeaching a president is the only way out . C'mon. I think foreign countries are laughing now at the idea of People Power. It had lost its essence as compared to the first one back in Marcos' time. So, eveytime we don't feel the president, we'll go to EDSA and stage People Power? Is that a joke or what?
Filipinos need to think further. It's not the president, it's the system. Let's say Gloria is corrupt and she really cheated on the elections; then somebody will take over (Mr. Decastro? Ping Lacson? Susan Roces?) Do they think the Philippines will come out unscathe off the ground? No! Change doesn't mean change the president. Change means change the ways; change the system; change us. And that is hard. That is really hard.
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Enough about politics. I feel like I'm back writing for an editorial for Journalese. Arghhh... I miss it!
There's a concert to be held around the globe in an effort to make poverty a history. It's called Live 8.
it's for a good cause and it boasts of the world's greatest bands/singers (U2, Maroon 5, Joss Sotne, etc). You guys can check it out at Live 8 website.
Posted at 05:46 pm by shnicky
Monday, June 20, 2005
To sleep, perchance to dream...
MUSIC: Ever the same - Rob Thomas
MOOD: Don't ask...
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We didn't sleep yesterday. Life is too cruel at times.
Ironic.
Painful.
Agonizing.
I had never seen my mum cried so helplessly until yesterday.
"You may need me to carry all your weight," my music sucks, what an appropriate song it is!
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same..
I badly wanted to stop it but somehow it soothes me. It's always better to accept it, rather than deny everything that had happened.
SATURDAY (Manila): As me and my sisters (around 6 or 7am) were waiting to pick up our new PC and while I was dramatic about my colds, flu, whatever; my cousin, Hernan, (in Bicol) fell off a gap on the ground and was buried under a pile of muddy soil. He might've stayed there about two minutes before his brother, Herbert and my other cousin, Henry rescued him. He was rushed to the hospital, 19 hours later, doctors declared him dead.
He was too young, too nice and too humble to died. It was all a blur. He was just 17.
The last time I went to Bicol, I promised him that I will be sending him some Westlife CDs. He liked Westlife songs. I never did get the chance to fulfill my promise. He just couldn't wait and I was too busy thinking about something else.
Regrets will not bring him back.
My mum flew in to Bicol first thing Sunday morning. I wanted to go, I am worried about my mum. She's 60 years old and was weeping nonstop. I'm worried about my grandfather, after Hernan was rushed to the hopsital, he barely speaks (and he still doesn't know he passed away).
The burden of not being there to symphatize because I'm in Manila. Just too far... That must've been what my mum felt whenever Aunt Minda let us call them in Bicol at the time Hernan was still in the hospital. My mum wanted to help them badly but we just couldn't do anything but pray because we're just too far...
The funeral will be this Saturday. My sister Dang, my other cousins and I are planning to go to the province by Thursday. I hope I can file a leave at work.
I hope every single one of us will be fine, somehow. I wish Hernan knew that he was, nah, still is, loved.
Goodbye and I know God will take care of you.
Posted at 02:32 pm by shnicky
Sunday, June 12, 2005
MUSIC: Meaning - Gavin Degraw
MOOD: Bored but fantastic
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Kyan Douglas (Queer Eye for the Straight Guy) told his audience at Greenbelt Mall, "Keep a journal, it's good!" So, I am reviving mine. It's been a while. And since I have my new PC at home, might as well take his advice and I know it is really a great (and only) way to exercise my writing skills (which, btw, is rusty).
Anyway, yeah, Kyan was here. He and Thom Filicia were in Manila to promote their books (Beautified [by Mr. Douglas] and Queer Eye fot the Straight Guy) and their show, too. We were lucky enough to meet Kyan and have our books signed yesterday.
I came from work so I was kinda in a haze. I haven't slept and eaten lunch. I arrived at the venue 12 noon and was hoping to catch a good meal before queuing.
That did not happen!
My sister realised that I, aside from getting too excitedly stupid, forgot the book in my locker at the office. Imagine that! After all the fuss with the cab driver on my way to the venue, I have to go back to the office. Okay, so Marco (my gay friend) and I went back to the office to get the book ([QEFTSG).
Maybe lady luck was still smiling at us because we were able to get inside the venue after our trip back to the office.
We waited. I haven't eaten lunch. My stomach didn't like the idea, I am telling you!
Finally, Kyan arrived a quarter before 3pm. He gave a brief speech on how to take care of ourslves. He also gave some beauty tips for the ladies in the house. He helped three people with their hair, looks, etc and the outcomes were fabolous!
Afterward, he signed our books and we got to have our pictures with him taken. He even cannot believe my name is Gay. maybe he thought I'm mocking him or something, but he's so nice about it; laughed about it!
It was such a wonderful day, though I got to eat lunch at 5pm.
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We also watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith after eating. It was a funny movie. Nothing really spactacular about it, it has a plain and ordinary plot but it was still a good movie. Angelie Jolie and Brad Pitt really sizzle on screen. Their chemistry is unbelievable.
Posted at 02:14 pm by shnicky
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punk-faced gremlins
It's me! Hurray!
name: Mary Gay
nick name: Gay, Maku
birthday: 12 September 1981
sex: contrary to popular beliefs, I am a woman!
obssessions: Orlando Bloom and Adam Levine
hobbies: net surfing on anything about my obessessions, reading books, sound-tripping, going to the cinemas, buying pirated and original dvds, sleeping
faves...
books: angels and demons, a time to kill, sleepers, seven, the da vinci code, the vampire chronicles
authors: John Grisham, Dan Brown, Anne Rice
songs: She will be Loved, Ragdoll, Woman, Tangled, Obvious, Crazy for You, Cry me a River
singers/musicians: Maroon 5, Westlife, Justin Timberlake
movies: The Lord of the Rings trilogy, The Priest, Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl and What's Eating Gilbert Grape
fancy an elf kind?
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